Spiritual Growing Pains part 2

Hello, good people. How are you guys? Let me know in the comments. For me, I just set up my fantasy football league and saw the first episode of House of the Dragon The Game of Thrones spin-off. I’ve always admired authors like George R. R . Martin and JK Rowling. They were able to look at a blank page and create an entire world. That is a gift.  I am a writer but my journey is different than theirs. We all have gifts that take time to develop. From roughly 16 to about 25 the world told me “You can do anything.” They say if you throw pasta at the wall and it sticks it’s done.  I started a bunch of projects and went the college 3 different times. Nothing went the way it was supposed to. So, I started to believe it.

In this three-dimensional world value and performance are judged on results. That can be measured by human standards. We are taught this from our childhoods. After a certain point every year, every test is measured into an average to determine our grades. Baseball players are offered multi-million dollar deals based on their mathematical averages. Singers and DJs can count how many people they make dance. A boxer fights until their opponent is knocked down or once again they’re judged on performance. How much money is in your account determines where you can live. The authors mentioned above are world-renowned   How can I quantify my value?

“Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.” 2 Corinthians 7:10 NIV

Yes, I published a book and I’ve had this blog and podcast for a few years now. However, print media is on life support and there is a podcast for everything. Writing is not a sexy occupation. When was the last time you saw anyone that published anything on career day at school? You will see doctors, lawyers, and even plumbers. I rejected this gift for the longest time because I subscribed to the same line of thought. With my calling statistics can be misleading. I can see how many books are shipped out and how many followers I have, but the message cannot be delivered once the book is received if it sits on their coffee table. We all get a lot of emails. It’s impossible to read them all. In modern times I’ve never heard a girl say “I fell in love with him through his writing.” I do not have a silky smooth voice. My laugh is like a dying seal.  When I sit in front of my tablet and or laptop I can’t let a coworker finish my ideas. All I can do is have someone proofread it. It takes approximately 3 hours to produce a 15-minute episode. What hope do I have? 

I meditated on these sets of questions For a few days I was in a horrible funk. The Holy Spirit gave me answers! Do you want to know a secret? I always say a prayer and listen to one gospel song before I sit down to write or press record. A speech by George Washington is still out there in the universe. The same as Martin Luther King’s I Have a Dream Speech. All sounds never die They only dissipate beyond our physical hearing. When I write I’m not alone. I write with the help of the Holy Spirit. That’s the same force that is making the Bible lasts over 2,000 years I may never know the names of the people who were impacted by my productions, but God does. I will undoubtedly get lonely from time to time but that is only temporary. Through faith, we can live forever. Thank you to anyone who took the time to read these words I’m simply trying to share what was on my heart. These past two blogs were written in quick succession after a rough few days.